While I'm Waiting

A couple of years ago I signed up to do foster care.  I wanted to do foster care ultimately to adopt out of the system.  There are so many children in the custody of the state that need to be in a home where someone will love them and care for them while their parents are trying to "fix" whatever it was that went wrong in the process of raising their child(ren).  I was blessed.  I had a placement of 3 of the most amazing children I could have ever met!  I became friends with the lady who gave them life and tried so hard to get them back home.  She did.  We all worked as a team to provide stability to these children during a trying time and yet we managed to form a friendship that extended beyond these 3 precious children.  I enjoyed having these little ones in my house for months!  I got to hear laughter, paint toenails, play restaurant, and develop a love even more greater than I thought for these little people.  It made me realize how much I truly wanted to be a mommy.  It gave me a "taste" of what that moment would be like.

Along this journey I met an amazing mentor who I consider to be a dear friend.  She went above and beyond to make sure my emotions were in tact, my voice was heard, and made me see the experience of fostering as a beautiful thing.  We shared our experiences with infertility.  We shared our longing to be mommies.  She was fortunate enough to adopt her sweet baby girl and is now a forever mommy.  Earlier this evening she shared a song with me.  This song was a testament during her trying time to become a mommy.  I feel honored to know her and for her to have shared her story with me.  I've added this song to my blog and if you click on the playlist on the right side of my blog on the song "While I'm Waiting" you will feel what's it's like to walk in my shoes.  This song will be my new lifeline while I wait to get that call saying I will become a mommy, saying I've been matched with a birth mother.  We are now at 4 months, 1 week, and 1 day waiting.  DH and I are still hanging in there and praying that God's will be done and that He see fit for us to raise a child together.

Enjoy the song and God Bless :)