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Let me start with I CAN'T BELIEVE HOW EXPENSIVE IT IS TO ADOPT!!!!  Okay, now I feel a little teeny weeny bit better.  I'm so frustrated today!  So many things are piling up on DH and I and it feels like there's more bad than good here lately.  Don't get me wrong, I still truly feel blessed for the life God has given me and I give thanks daily for those blessings.  This is just one of those days that I wanna bury my head in a pillow in a dark room all by my lonesome...and just cry. 

When I found out 15 years ago there was no chance I could conceive and carry a baby I was only 18 years old.  It was rough.  It was tough.  BUT I prayed my way through and know with my whole heart that THAT just wasn't the plan God had for me.  I refuse to think that God didn't want me to be a mother.  This is where I struggle.  I don't know what plan He has for me in this department.  I only know that the longing I have to hold MY precious child is only getting stronger.  I pray.  I pray that God will bring me MY precious miracle in the form He sees fit.  It's hard not knowing what that way is. 

Several years ago I was a foster mommy.  While wanting to help the children who belonged to the state I was also in it for selfish reasons.  I wanted to find the child that was supposed to be mine.  The child that needed a mommy and daddy and a house full of love.  I did meet some absolutely amazing kiddos as 7 of them passed through my home and were reunited with family members.  This also left me with more of a longing than ever to have my own child.  I didn't and don't like an empty home.  I enjoyed diaper changes, baths, nightly feedings, etc. that I got to experience with my foster babies.  When the kiddos left they took a piece of me with them that can only be filled by "my" child.

So I was left with 2 choices.  I could either adopt or do surrogacy.  I met with a highly recommended doctor at a fertility clinic who assured me it wouldn't take anymore than a couple of rounds to be successful.  While he "assured" me there's still no guarantee that oodles of money would've been spent and empty arms being the end result.  So, DH and I decided adoption was the choice that best fit our family.  We have been waiting a little over 5 months now and we are so happy with how fast the time has gone.  Our only major obstacle now is the financial aspect of adoption.  We are on the waiting list for an infant through an open domestic adoption.  While we are okay financially, we are just that...OK.  We are both teachers and work harder than what we make, but we don't complain because we both love what we do.  We have a passion to teach kids, to love kids, and to be a part of the molding kids of our future. 

Here's what I'm asking of my friends, both Blogger and Facebook.  I've created a "donate" button on the top right of my blog for those of you that would be able to donate in any way.  Please don't think I'm begging for money (although it seems like I am) as I know God will find a way to provide.  I only ask that if you are led to donate that you do and in return.  Thank you so much for even taking the time to read my Blog and follow my journey of trying to becoming a mommy.