Day 45

Almost daily I log onto this blog, a savior in so many ways, to read stories of those I've connected with about adoption and infertility.  I enjoy catching up on the blogs I follow and reading the day's events in the lives of each one.  Some are sharing stories and pictures of their little ones via adoption and some are sharing stories of the pain they still endure years later from choosing adoption.  As the Christmas season approaches I pray that each story is heard and that God helps those who are still in pain see the light at the end of the tunnel.  I pray that He continues to bless those whose families have been created by adoption.

By husband and I have been "waiting" for 45 days now.  We spent yesterday doing most of our Christmas shopping.  We walked around the mall and went into so many stores.  We bought for us and we bought for others.  We browsed shoes, accessories, clothes, and everything else imaginable.  Lucky for me DH is an awesome shopping buddy.  More then that, he just enjoys spending time with me, something I've wished for my whole adult life. 

We traveled in and out of different stores and had fun just holding hands and walking through the mall.  As we passed by baby items we would say "if it's a girl..." or "if it's a boy..."  I know we are only at day 45, but the final day where we are matched can't come soon enough!  We are going through a private agency (not an attorney) and our social worker has told us not to dwell on the wait time.  She clearly stated the average wait time was 1.5-2 years.  I do find moments of reading stories where I can't wait til I can share MY story of a happy ending, my chance to become a mommy.  DH and I are excited for what is to come.  We are excited to be parents together.  We are excited for a future of several children. 

I don't know what God's plan is for us, but he has blessed us beyond measure!  Even with the struggles of infertility and sometimes not knowing where I am supposed to be or what I'm supposed to do with my life, He places things in my path along the way to show me I'm heading in the right direction.  Please pray that the wait time continues to go smooth and painless.  I hope everyone enjoys their Sunday!