Funding

Let me start with I CAN'T BELIEVE HOW EXPENSIVE IT IS TO ADOPT!!!!  Okay, now I feel a little teeny weeny bit better.  I'm so frustrated today!  So many things are piling up on DH and I and it feels like there's more bad than good here lately.  Don't get me wrong, I still truly feel blessed for the life God has given me and I give thanks daily for those blessings.  This is just one of those days that I wanna bury my head in a pillow in a dark room all by my lonesome...and just cry. 

When I found out 15 years ago there was no chance I could conceive and carry a baby I was only 18 years old.  It was rough.  It was tough.  BUT I prayed my way through and know with my whole heart that THAT just wasn't the plan God had for me.  I refuse to think that God didn't want me to be a mother.  This is where I struggle.  I don't know what plan He has for me in this department.  I only know that the longing I have to hold MY precious child is only getting stronger.  I pray.  I pray that God will bring me MY precious miracle in the form He sees fit.  It's hard not knowing what that way is. 

Several years ago I was a foster mommy.  While wanting to help the children who belonged to the state I was also in it for selfish reasons.  I wanted to find the child that was supposed to be mine.  The child that needed a mommy and daddy and a house full of love.  I did meet some absolutely amazing kiddos as 7 of them passed through my home and were reunited with family members.  This also left me with more of a longing than ever to have my own child.  I didn't and don't like an empty home.  I enjoyed diaper changes, baths, nightly feedings, etc. that I got to experience with my foster babies.  When the kiddos left they took a piece of me with them that can only be filled by "my" child.

So I was left with 2 choices.  I could either adopt or do surrogacy.  I met with a highly recommended doctor at a fertility clinic who assured me it wouldn't take anymore than a couple of rounds to be successful.  While he "assured" me there's still no guarantee that oodles of money would've been spent and empty arms being the end result.  So, DH and I decided adoption was the choice that best fit our family.  We have been waiting a little over 5 months now and we are so happy with how fast the time has gone.  Our only major obstacle now is the financial aspect of adoption.  We are on the waiting list for an infant through an open domestic adoption.  While we are okay financially, we are just that...OK.  We are both teachers and work harder than what we make, but we don't complain because we both love what we do.  We have a passion to teach kids, to love kids, and to be a part of the molding kids of our future. 

Here's what I'm asking of my friends, both Blogger and Facebook.  I've created a "donate" button on the top right of my blog for those of you that would be able to donate in any way.  Please don't think I'm begging for money (although it seems like I am) as I know God will find a way to provide.  I only ask that if you are led to donate that you do and in return.  Thank you so much for even taking the time to read my Blog and follow my journey of trying to becoming a mommy. 

5 Months And Updates

Today makes 5 months of officially waiting for DH and I!!!  Time is just traveling by and I attribute most of that to being so busy at work!  Since I started teaching, the years have just flown by.  Literally.  I keep saying by the end of next school year I should def be a mommy (based on the average wait time that would be 1.5 years).  We are hoping we get the call sooner, but as I've said in many posts before, we know it's all in His timing.  So we wait.  And we continue praying for patience.

I haven't blogged since March 4 and although I've been meaning to it seems these last few weeks have been quite challenging.  Here's a "quick" update...

*DH and I lost one of our students who was so very special to us
*We bought a house (new construction) and have had to pick out all types of designs for everything
*We are less than 2 weeks away from Mexico (Spring Break)
*We have missed school for snow and for flooding
*My sweet dachshund passed away from fluid building up around her heart
*We are busy planning for my younger sister's baby shower that will be next weekend

And for now, I think that's all of the "major" updates!  It's been a very busy few weeks.  I've had emotions that were high and emotions that were low.  I've leaned completely on God for His help dealing with so many different things (on top of my job and testing and not enough time to cover material and blah blah blah).  I know everything will fall into place as it should.  Sometimes it's just comforting to ask for an extra prayer...  

Our Profile Book

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I haven't viewed our profile book in awhile, but it's been on my mind.  Tonight, I decided to pull it back up and repost it.  I wanted to look back through it myself, plus give all my blogger friends a chance to get to know DH and I a little more.  This book is very important to us and we were so excited to have completed it.  As we near waiting 5 months for our forever family I'm feeling very blessed tonight to have the partner I do for this journey :)